I made it! or Did I?

Starting rant - I have lost a total of 50lbs and still have not qualified for surgery. I met with the psych to be cleared and she said she wanted to review food logs and movement/water logs and also to lose 5 lbs more. So what did I do? I created a sharable food log in google drive with drop down menus. I lost almost 10 more pounds and I still need to wait for an opening with her that isn't until the end of the month. Waiting is literally driving me nuts. I'm talking mass anxiety. My whole life is on hold for this and I just want to move on and get on the schedule so I can start planning for a better future. I am just fearful that something will change with my insurance or eligibility that will not allow me to have it. ok - Rant over for now......